thanks_bastards

This entry is dedicated to my new favorite commercial


From now on, whenever I drink whiskey, its going to be called "Fighting the Giant Octopus"

so good.

"Maybe I'll get ya laid" is probably the worst way to persuade me to come hang out with you.

I'm so disinterested in sex with anyone right now. I hate the way people use other people for the sake of putting their dick in someone/putting someones dick in them, and I want nothing to do with that. I know too many people who put so much focus on the next time they're getting laid that it seems like their lives revolve around it, and I'd rather not live my life like that. I've been doing a good job up to now of that, so here's to staying on track.

however, i am currently accepting applications for awesome platonic hangouts. so do that up.

I'm going to boston for 3 days, which rules. Gonna be even further disconnected from everyone i know, which is a fun hobby right now.

don't feel personally insulted if i havent been answering calls/texts/emails/etc. in the last few months. I've been trying to spend as little technology time as possible. It's nice.

Praxis exams are out of the way, and starting friday I have 6 weeks off of work. Here's the to-do list for this summer:

Day-to-Day tasks:
-Job Hunting/Resume sending
-Bike Rides in the morning and at night, weather permitting.
-Getting to this list of books rising higher and higher that need to be read. hopefully 1-2 a week.
-Start Running more than just at soccer

Big things I want to do for fun:
-CAMPING whenever fucking possible
-Hiking/Backpacking!
-maybe catch a few good shows(EXTRAORDINAIRES FRIDAY FUCK YEA)
-Cow Town Rodeo with Mike and crew
-Getting a few shows for my new band Galvanized Nails
   -get better at guitar for Galvanized Nails
   -small tour for GN?(looking at you Westchesterites)


the big one:
-Get back to thoroughly enjoying my life.

ever disappointed with shitty friends who never come through for me. even for simple shit like coming out to a free show when they have absolutely nothing going on because they dont want to drive 10 minutes

I ruled my praxis this morning. came out of the test with the worst mental fatigue, it was like running a physics marathon. 100 questions in 120 minutes.

summer, woo?

while i am looking forward to my birthday weekend so much, i have a sinking feeling that it will be a huge disappointment, and this is not what i need right now,

Most epic extended weekend ever. Friday-today(wednesday) ruled my life.

I've been spending less time in front of my computer and television, and more time in books and learning.

its been a good few days.

this guy in my differential equations class has hired me to tutor him through the semester so that he doesn't fail, and is paying me 45 bucks for 1.5 or so hours every week. fucking score. and i think i might take a job i found on craigslist to teach math a few hours a week to dropouts trying to get back in the education game in camden for 100 bucks a week.

i love teaching. i really do. im glad i decided to do this.

tomorrow should be a relaxation day, but ive got a presentation to write for wednesday, laundry to do, and a test to study for that is on thursday.

im glad nothing has changed and that people from my school never cease to amaze at being shitty friends.

except joe. he still rules.

everyone else, fuck you.

so its been a full two months and i havent posted anything up here, and im tired of looking at the immense list of tasks i had to complete at the end of last semester.

by the way, i got all that done, and ruled my exams. december was a fucking great month.


so its february, and im graduating in 3 months. its fucking weird. ill be 22, in search of a career, and with all the responsibilities that entails. crazy.

Life's kinda slow right now. I have class 3 days a week, and i really only end up going twice a week, so its not too bad. In march when i have to start going up saturdays too is gonna suck a bit. My classes are all a fucking breeze. My friends at school have sort of dissapointed me, but things are changing which is nice. Up until this week i hadn't seen anyone i hung out with last semester, but i supposedly have plans tuesday to hang out with kait, and then im gonna try and get time to see joe and other people as well. these kids live 20 minutes away from me over breaks and summer, but we only see each other 2 hours from home...i dont know haha.

right now i should be going to sleep, but at the same time im not in a rush, as im skipping classes tomorrow/today. aside from this, there is not much else going on with me, so ill end it here

so its 5am about and i just got over freaking out over the insane amount of things that need to be accomplished in the next 7 days.

I'm pretty sure my compsci exam is monday, rather than on the actual testing date. this is shitty.
this is more or less a post just for me to keep track of things.

Things to get done:

Quantum Mechanics:
10 minute presentation on Enrico Fermi due Tuesday
10 page paper on same person due Friday
Spend all of wednesday and thursday studying for the final friday at 3

this is only 3 things, but holy shit how long each one will take

Optics:
Review the entire book by wednesday the 17th

Computer Science:
Code the 8th hw assignment, submit.
Learn randomness generators and review arrays for final monday

Physical Geology:
5 Page paper due next monday

Mineralogy:
Research the formation of Adirondack Marbles for my part of a 15 minute presentation, done by monday morning to meet with my group
Take home exam due the 19th


thank god i didnt slack this semester in all my classes like usual. having to learn everyoneof these courses on top of the work load like i usually pull off just would not work.

im not bothering to sleep anymore tonite. i passed out around 12, woke up at 2, and as i tried to fall asleep freaked out over the workload, and over being a good teacher when i finally get out of here. around 3 i decided that there was no way i was getting to sleep, so im taking an advance on studying for quantum, by reading the 3rd volume of the Feynman lectures that i have on pdf. The 2 chapters ive read are really great and im hopin i can pick up actual copies of the 3 volumes in the near future(xmas perhaps?)

have to drive home around 830 today, so im gonna use one of my remaining meal swipes to get a huge breakfast, with lots of coffee haha. Have to wait for furniture to be delivered for my parents, and ill probably use the waiting time to get laundry done and some more studying. depending on when the furniture gets in ill probably take a nap too. Bayern play Hoffenheim at 230, and this is like, the biggest match of the fall so no doubt im gonna have to watch that. A haircut will probably happen sometime after that as well.

I'm kinda glad the semester is ending, because next semester will be a comparitive cake walk and i can focus on working and trying to be able to move out as soon as i graduate, rather than waiting till the end of summer or further on. It's not that i dont enjoy being home, but i just want to be on my own really for once.

lifes lookin pretty great these days


except that i think im getting sick...the night before a huge test, and another one on thursday.

fun!

now back to attempting to crash in my bed

life at school is so shitty right now, and ive just felt so horrible the last 2 weeks, and theres just been noone around to help me break this funk.

my schedule next semester is awesome, 3 classes, and i have off wednesday and friday. my schedule works out where i can effectively take the train from home and back, and while it would be a pain in the ass, im saving 3-4000 bucks that i dont have to spend in the first place.

i want things to change so much in the 2 weeks before i have to decide, but i know they wont.

there are only honestly 2 people who if i tell them im thinking of not coming back to live here, and they tell me that they want me to stay, i would actually stay.

so far one of those two has expressed total indifference on the subject.



fuck my life

HALLOWEEN YO!

hallowmas is tonite. im so fucking stoked. going in with steph kyle and jason. seein some of the parade, getting way trashed, and epic stage dives.

cant fuckin wait

havent used this in ages, so here we go!

im going camping in the adirondacks this weekend, FOR A CLASS, to get drunk, FOR COLLEGE CREDIT

sweeeet.

Schools starting. fun times.

not able to sleep tonite, and i have to drive an hour and a half up to school at 630am. looks like im crashin as soon as i get there.

goals for the semester:
fun times
hangouts
do all my work
go to (most of) my classes
read alot of books
continue brushing up on my german, and start learning russian and dutch...

only like, 2 things on that list are gonna happen, but whatever haha.

senior year! wtf....

things are good.

for once im thoroughly enjoying summer.

soccer every week, sometimes twice. seeing friends more than ever. working at a place that i absolutely love. so many bike rides and philly hangouts. also, alcohol(no way!) is great.


should be getting a new bike this weekend, if i remember to drag my ass out of bed early saturday.

schools in 3 weeks, cant wait to be back.

I Met Rainn Wilson last night

He Hugged Me In Front Of A Whole Theater After Showing His New Movie During the Q+A


WHAT THE FUCK!?

DWIGHT K SCHRUTE

WHAT THE FUCK!?

I just came to the realization that I am completely happy with myself, my life, and how others view me.

this summer ive been improving myself physically, mentally, and in turn, emotionally.

Its a really nice feeling when you're the person everyone comes to with problems and need advice, or just to talk to you to see your perspective on something. Even though I've been aware of this for some time, the sense of worth just came to me, and its a really positive feeling.

I can't wait to start my job. helping kids and sharing what I know, even if it is just simple math, is going to be rewarding.

This summer, a bunch of people I know have set up a weekly soccer game. It's amazing. First week we expected 7 or 8 people tops, ended up with 15. the next week a bunch of people couldnt come, and yet still 12 people showed. Next week will probably be slow, but the week after everyone will be back and if we can get two full teams of 11 at some point, I'm going to be really happy.

I've decided to go into teaching next year when I graduate. Shannon, you're not going to like me for this, but I think I am staying in South Jersey after school, and probably moving into a house with Bickerson and Adam. It's going to suck being away from some of my best friends, but I love being near philly, within a stones throw of a camping trip, and just the area in general. You guys should all move down here, for real. Tell doug theres a famous dave's in cherry hill, and do it. for real. :D

Between soccer, bike rides, and yardwork, im in a perpetual state of soreness, and usually wallowing in some sort of filth, be it sweat, dirt, or a mud composed of both. It sounds disgusting but I kind of enjoy it. Gives me a sense of accomplishment where as the sterility of being clean makes me feel lazy and unproductive.

im not really sure where im going with all this, but thats been my life. im sure it will resolve itself in one way or another

i have a job

this rules

i start in july

20 hours a week, 16 bucks an hour, just to help kids with math. i do that shit for free at school all the time

fuckin right.

until then, im just gonna be doin alot of bike riding, reading, and some spare yardwork to make some money from the rents